impossible to grasp?

I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Ephesians 3:16-19

Over the past couple of weeks, I have been praying and meditating on this scripture. Paul was writing to the Ephesians and detailing his prayer for them. It is my current prayer that I might truly know the love of Christ and that I might grasp how "wide and long and high and deep" His affections are for me. Sometimes I feel it is impossible to grasp, and to some extent, that is certainly true. I do not think, in my humanness, I will ever be able to fully comprehend "this love that surpasses knowledge." I think this is why it is so hard to process and accept because if we are reliant on our own understanding, nothing about the love of Christ makes sense.

We are a fickle people, consumed with our own hurts, habit and hangups. We are far too easily pleased with the temporal pleasures of this earth. We consistently compartmentalize our lives, only allowing God to move and work in certain areas, but careful to retain control of specific things, be it our finances, job, relationships, etc. In terms of our devotion to Christ, we wouldn't put up with our kind of behavior from another human for one day, much less a lifetime. This is why it is utterly unfathomable that God not only "puts up with us," but He pursues us with unrelenting desire to be with us. What kind of human loves like this? What kind of human even comes close? What kind of human would endure rejection upon rejection, only to whisper that He longs for us to come back to Him? It makes no rational, logical sense. It is simply not lucid...

This is precisely why it has become my prayer. I know I cannot and will not understand it using my human knowledge. I must seek it with all my heart and desperately pray for Christ to help me in my finite grasp of His love. I know Jeremiah 29:13 tells me that if I seek Him with my whole heart, I will find Him. I think this applies to His love as well. I know if I desire to grasp His love and I seek it through His word, His creation and His people, He will reveal it to me according to His will and purpose.

I pray Ephesians 3:16-19 over you, dear reader, because I know if we were to grasp even an ounce of His love for us, it would change everything.